Chemistry Final from Hell

  From the time that I started learning hardcore science, I have stunk at it. I haven't failed or anything, I just didn't completely comprehend it. No matter if I study for eight hours straight, I still do not get A's. I just don't know what it is. In any other subject I am able to catch on if I read and study, but for chemistry I just can't get it.
  I know I haven't updated on anything lately, but I have recently changed to a nursing major which meant that I had to take chemistry C110 as a prerequisite.  At first I was deceived since the first week or so was very simple stuff, but I was easily mistaken. We started learning a whole bunch of stuff that wasn't even explained well in the book. On top of that, my professor can never answer your questions, he goes off on rants that have nothing to do with chemistry, and he has a heavy french accent. So all in all, going to class doesn't help either. I am usually an independant studier, so going to lectures doesn't always benefit me, especially for chemistry since he can sometimes confuse me even more.
   I have no idea why I am entering a blog post right now considering I have a final in less than three hours right now. I studied last night, but I just could not focus at all! The final is a cumulative test over the last three exams. You might think, 'wow that's not that bad, only three tests worth', but you my friend are wrong. These exams have so much darn information stacked in each exam that my brain feels like it is going to explode.
  The final is around 55 questions, so each and every question is important to get right. I need at least a B on this final so I can maintain a B in this class. Just put me in your prayers that I pass this horrendous test (well I will pass without a doubt, but I want to get a really great grade)!

Adam's Departure

   I know...it's been a while since I have posted, but better late than never.
   Anyways, here's a little update on my life.
   Adam, 18, my brother has officially left for basic training, and I miss him....ALOT!
   I never thought I would miss him this much, but I do.
   But I guess some context about the situation would be of much help.
   For starters, Adam just graduated high school and is going to Purdue University next year to study engineering. The original problem is that we can't really afford taking out five billion dollars in loans (sarcasm) for him and I to go away to school, but Adam had a plan.


Adam's graduation ceremony, June 5, 2013

   Adam's plan was to join the National Guard and ROTC so that he could go away to Purdue since the state of Indiana will pay for his tuition. I don't exactly know all the details because it can be a little confusing, but long story short, he has to go to basic training for the summer.
   Adam left on June 10th to take a plane down the Atlanta, Georgia. For starters there was a hour and a half delay since there was severe weather in Atlanta. Luckily for him he got to meet some WNBA players while he sat in the airport. Anyways, when he finally got on the plane and finally landed in Atlanta he went to go get on the bus that was supposed to drop him off at Fort Benning, but it wasn't that easy. He waited for the bus for FOUR HOURS!!! He wasn't nervous that he missed it since there was around one hundred other soldiers waiting to catch the same bus with him.
   He finally arrived at Fort Benning for infantry training that night of June 10th. We haven't really heard from him yet besides a couple little tiny weeny letters and a couple of two-minute phone calls.
   It has finally hit me that he is gone and I hate it. I never thought I would miss him this much but I do. I was always used to him being gone since he was always with his friends, but this is completely different. I cannot see him in the mornings, I cannot see him after school, I cannot text him, I cannot call him, I cannot see his tweets, and I have no idea what he is doing!
   When he graduates basic training and finally arrives at Purdue, I will try to visit him alot. And even though he might not admit it, we are actually pretty close siblings. For god sakes, we are only 13 months apart!



Getting Back On Track

Hello world,
I have been a horrible blogger and I apologize for that nonsense. But I am here not to inform you of anything, I am here to yell at myself for being a horrible person.
Now I am not talking about horrible as in mean or nasty, I am horrible at dieting.
I joined Weight Watchers in January and joined a new gym by my house in March. Weight Watchers was an immediate success and I lost 17 pounds by the end of March, but that success soon plummeted. During my Spring Break I fell off the deep end. I was just so bored and my boredom led to a life full of food for that long week. By the following Tuesday (my weekly weigh-in day) I had gained four pounds.....FOUR POUNDS...how did I even manage to do that, and how did I not have a heart attack from gaining all that in such a short amount of time!?! Let me just say it this way, the results of that week scared the life out of me, and I got back on track that following week.
But the well behaved week didn't last...
I fell of the deep end again and I haven't been able to get back up yet!
This past weekend has been the worst though. My parents went out of town for Andrew's tournament, and I was bored and alone so I decided to eat. I know some people like to indulge in potato chips or pizza but I indulge in one thing....SUGAR. I'm just obsessed with sugar no matter what it is in. And the result of the incredible sugar consumption was feeling like total crap. I seriously just felt so bad, sick, gross, and lumpy.
Tomorrow morning is my weigh-in and I am so scared. Since I lost those wonderful 17 pounds I gained  seven of those back already. I'm spiraling way too fast, and I need to get my booty back on track, because I feel and look disgusting.
Perhaps the worst thing is that I haven't worked out. In my defense sometimes I cannot because I have those annoying foot procedures done where I cannot walk for a week or so, so that really throws me off, but hopefully those procedures won't happen as often anymore. But nonetheless, I must start working out though to get those endorphins flowing. One of the main reasons I need to work out again though is because I pretty much have a double chin right now and it is so embarrassing. Like seriously, how many 19 year olds can say that have that...not many!
With a cherry on top of all of this wonderfulness (complete sarcasm) my acne is worse than a 13 year old going through puberty. Like for real, it is HORRIBLE. My dermatologist is trying to help me, but everything is drying my skin out really bad without producing any results.
So all in all, I guess it is safe to say I have absolutely no confidence in anything right now and my blood sugar levels are skyrocketing so it is hard to get back on track. But I am going to try my hardest, especially since finals are coming up and I don't want to feel sad and disgusting during that already stressful time.
But I will keep you updated about my hopeful successes in my weight, exercise, acne, and finals.

Update

My room is officially done except for one piece that I have just ordered online. Everything is in place, and my room couldn't look any more modern/chic/classic/fun/colorful even if it tried.
I would take pictures and post them now, but I want to wait till I have my final piece hung up.
The final piece is an art piece that is desperately needed above my desk. I found a beautiful watercolor abstract painting on www.art.com. It's a poster and needs a frame, so I also have to do that. I got a poster of it because it would be like five hundred thousand dollars if it was an original on canvas. (Okay, I know I exaggerated, but it would have been seriously way too expensive)

I know I say that the only thing left to do in my room is getting that picture, but I know of one more thing my room could use....a television.
I guess I don't really need one, but if I did invest in one, my room would officially look just like a studio apartment (without the kitchen).
I have enough money saved up to buy one, but I have one problem, I don't have a cable plug in my room (or whatever it is actually called). I'm not so sure on how that all works, but don't they make those tv connection cords that don't have to be plugged into anything, they are linked to one main server.
Okay, now it just looks like I'm oblivious to how televisions work, so I'm just going to stop talking.

What I'm going to do know is go research all that television stuff, then come back and sound smarter about all that subject matter.

But all in all, my room looks great, when I put the finishing touches up, I will take pictures and post them.

Room Update

The New Color Scheme For My Room

So right now here are the items that I have:
1. Daybed
2. Coffee Table(s)
3. Comfy Recliner Chair
4. Sunburst Mirror
5. One light Fixture
6. Decorative Pillows
7. Wall Decor

So as you can see this three day weekend has been a successful one. All of this came together really quickly and I ran with it. On Friday night my mom and I went to TJ Maxx and struck it rich with pillows and cool decorative ampersand signs.
On Sunday we then went to Ikea for the first time and I got two coffee tables and a light fixture there.  The coffee tables are simple round tables with glass tops. I got two because one would just look weird and two of them together would be pretty. So yeah, we got two. The light fixture is a table lamp that is kind of cool and modern. I am not sure how to describe it but when I start putting my room together I'll take pictures.
After Ikea, I then headed over to Homegoods. I was so excited to walk in there and I found so many cute accessories for around the room, but I couldn't get them.....they weren't expensive, they were to fragile, and they weren't ugly. I couldn't get them because I had found a beautiful chair and not everything would fit in the car. The chair was a gray over sized comfy sofa seat that happened to also be a recliner. I was then obsessed with it and the price. The chair was originally over $400 but we got it for just under $200. If that isn't a steal, I don't know what is. So after purchasing the chair and the two tables at Ikea, we somehow had to fit it all in my CR-V. It was a feat, but we accomplished the daunting task.
On Monday my mom and I headed over to some weird store by us and I had such a closed-mind thinking we wouldn't find anything, but I was wrong. When we first walked in we found a cheap long mirror that I'm going to put on the back of my door, it was a simple but needed find. We then started walking towards the back of the store where we found a beautiful wall piece. It was a huge and gorgeous sunburst mirror that will be the focal point above my bed.



Perhaps the biggest accomplishment of this weekend was cleaning out ALL MY DRAWS AND CLOSET. I haven't really done this since my freshmen year or so, so you can only imagine how much I threw out.



SEVEN BAGS OF DONATED CLOTHES LATER, my draws are finally cleaned out and ready to be transferred all to one dresser.

So yeah, as I said in the beginning, this weekend was a total success; but the next feat that I must accomplish is painting the room.....wish me luck.

Room Makeover: Stage One

Okay, yeah, I know I haven't entered anything since November, but nothing has happened in between then and now that would be worth posting. No, really, NOTHING!
But now I finally have something to talk about and continue updating about....I'm redoing my room! I'm so extremely excited.
Last night my mom and I ordered a daybed on eBay. The reason we decided on ordering a daybed is because when I move out in a couple years (hopefully) it can be used as a bed/couch if I'm in a studio apartment or it can be part of a guest room, or it can be my bed while I'm saving up for a King/Queen size bed. So see, it is a great idea!
The problem with finding daybeds though is that most of them look like baby cribs. No seriously, they do, it's ridiculous. I found one that sort of looks like a couch so it will be good and my twin mattress will fit in there; comfy and smart!
Anyways, besides buying the daybed, my next feat will be finding a color scheme. Right now I am almost certain on one thing, my wall color. Right now the whole 'gray is the new beige' is what I'm thinking. Gray walls with all colorful accessories is my plan....for now at least. So here are some schemes I'm leaning towards...

I really want some playful colors, but I don't want them so playful, that it starts to look like a little girl/preteen room. So, I must be careful! I also don't want pink to be the main color, it's not that I don't like pink, it's just that I want my room to look more classy than girly; but I know that pink will be an accent color in one way or another.

So I'm working toward Room Makeover Stage One right now: picking the color scheme, and painting the walls.

Oh, and let me know what color schemes you like!

96%

Okay, well I took my anthropology midterm on Tuesday. I wasn’t too nervous about the midterm, even though I should have been, so I basically didn’t study for it on Monday night. On Tuesday morning I studied with my friend in the library for a couple hours before the test. I got a lot done and it really helped even though of course I felt as though I could have studied much more the night before. When I got the test I was pretty nervous considering I really had no idea what my chances were for getting an A. When I started taking the test, I went straight for the fill in the blank section. It was over various things and it was pretty easy. So that boosted up my confidence. I then started all the multiple-choice questions and some of them were tricky of course, but I managed. One hundred twelve questions later I handed in the test. I surprisingly felt pretty confident about it. On Thursday my professor started handing back the quiz and midterm, I suddenly felt nervous for some reason. My two friends got their midterms back next to me and they both got D’s so I then started getting much more nervous. Then he handed back my test and quiz. I slowly opened my eyes as I peeked at my grade. I then felt my adrenalin pumping right away. I was so happy and pumped up. I got a 96% on the midterm and a 100% on the quiz. I felt so elevated and amazing. So in the end, I am basically acing that class right now and most of my other classes. I pretty much love college.