Hello world,
I have been a horrible blogger and I apologize for that nonsense. But I am here not to inform you of anything, I am here to yell at myself for being a horrible person.
Now I am not talking about horrible as in mean or nasty, I am horrible at dieting.
I joined Weight Watchers in January and joined a new gym by my house in March. Weight Watchers was an immediate success and I lost 17 pounds by the end of March, but that success soon plummeted. During my Spring Break I fell off the deep end. I was just so bored and my boredom led to a life full of food for that long week. By the following Tuesday (my weekly weigh-in day) I had gained four pounds.....FOUR POUNDS...how did I even manage to do that, and how did I not have a heart attack from gaining all that in such a short amount of time!?! Let me just say it this way, the results of that week scared the life out of me, and I got back on track that following week.
But the well behaved week didn't last...
I fell of the deep end again and I haven't been able to get back up yet!
This past weekend has been the worst though. My parents went out of town for Andrew's tournament, and I was bored and alone so I decided to eat. I know some people like to indulge in potato chips or pizza but I indulge in one thing....SUGAR. I'm just obsessed with sugar no matter what it is in. And the result of the incredible sugar consumption was feeling like total crap. I seriously just felt so bad, sick, gross, and lumpy.
Tomorrow morning is my weigh-in and I am so scared. Since I lost those wonderful 17 pounds I gained seven of those back already. I'm spiraling way too fast, and I need to get my booty back on track, because I feel and look disgusting.
Perhaps the worst thing is that I haven't worked out. In my defense sometimes I cannot because I have those annoying foot procedures done where I cannot walk for a week or so, so that really throws me off, but hopefully those procedures won't happen as often anymore. But nonetheless, I must start working out though to get those endorphins flowing. One of the main reasons I need to work out again though is because I pretty much have a double chin right now and it is so embarrassing. Like seriously, how many 19 year olds can say that have that...not many!
With a cherry on top of all of this wonderfulness (complete sarcasm) my acne is worse than a 13 year old going through puberty. Like for real, it is HORRIBLE. My dermatologist is trying to help me, but everything is drying my skin out really bad without producing any results.
So all in all, I guess it is safe to say I have absolutely no confidence in anything right now and my blood sugar levels are skyrocketing so it is hard to get back on track. But I am going to try my hardest, especially since finals are coming up and I don't want to feel sad and disgusting during that already stressful time.
But I will keep you updated about my hopeful successes in my weight, exercise, acne, and finals.
I have been a horrible blogger and I apologize for that nonsense. But I am here not to inform you of anything, I am here to yell at myself for being a horrible person.
Now I am not talking about horrible as in mean or nasty, I am horrible at dieting.
I joined Weight Watchers in January and joined a new gym by my house in March. Weight Watchers was an immediate success and I lost 17 pounds by the end of March, but that success soon plummeted. During my Spring Break I fell off the deep end. I was just so bored and my boredom led to a life full of food for that long week. By the following Tuesday (my weekly weigh-in day) I had gained four pounds.....FOUR POUNDS...how did I even manage to do that, and how did I not have a heart attack from gaining all that in such a short amount of time!?! Let me just say it this way, the results of that week scared the life out of me, and I got back on track that following week.
But the well behaved week didn't last...
I fell of the deep end again and I haven't been able to get back up yet!
This past weekend has been the worst though. My parents went out of town for Andrew's tournament, and I was bored and alone so I decided to eat. I know some people like to indulge in potato chips or pizza but I indulge in one thing....SUGAR. I'm just obsessed with sugar no matter what it is in. And the result of the incredible sugar consumption was feeling like total crap. I seriously just felt so bad, sick, gross, and lumpy.
Tomorrow morning is my weigh-in and I am so scared. Since I lost those wonderful 17 pounds I gained seven of those back already. I'm spiraling way too fast, and I need to get my booty back on track, because I feel and look disgusting.
Perhaps the worst thing is that I haven't worked out. In my defense sometimes I cannot because I have those annoying foot procedures done where I cannot walk for a week or so, so that really throws me off, but hopefully those procedures won't happen as often anymore. But nonetheless, I must start working out though to get those endorphins flowing. One of the main reasons I need to work out again though is because I pretty much have a double chin right now and it is so embarrassing. Like seriously, how many 19 year olds can say that have that...not many!
With a cherry on top of all of this wonderfulness (complete sarcasm) my acne is worse than a 13 year old going through puberty. Like for real, it is HORRIBLE. My dermatologist is trying to help me, but everything is drying my skin out really bad without producing any results.
So all in all, I guess it is safe to say I have absolutely no confidence in anything right now and my blood sugar levels are skyrocketing so it is hard to get back on track. But I am going to try my hardest, especially since finals are coming up and I don't want to feel sad and disgusting during that already stressful time.
But I will keep you updated about my hopeful successes in my weight, exercise, acne, and finals.
